Heads or Tales? You choose....maybe?...not likely

So yesterday...I was really just having a crap day. I was trying to feel better. I tried smiling all the way to work (I read somewhere that If you smile, even just force it out, you will trick yourself into being happy). I more or less think I creeped out some people when I was driving with a huge grin on my face....not talking on the phone....no one in the car.... just me and my smile. Well needless to say...didnt make me feel to much better.

Well I get to work in a "GRRR" kinda mood, so go figure I wouldnt want to be there. Well Getting to see Tee and Zach Deff helped though. Tee has the most kind heart and she is a trip, Zach Cracks me up the whole time.... so it started to help bring down the irritation.

On the way home I put on Michael Buble' all my windows down, Started feeling even better. Now as a side note I live like 30-45min away from my work location, but it really dosnt bother me to much, I like to use it as my chill time, get my thoughts straight ect...any way while I was driving with my lover (AKA Michael Buble') seranading me. I was driving by the Diamond, It must have been a flying squirrels game and I caught the fire works going off..... I felt at peace and completely relaxed and happy. THE LITTLE THINGS NICOLE, THE LITTLE THINGS! These are what make my day. Im greatful for the friends I have and the job I have. :-D

Oh the places You will Go

Just food for thought. Beacuse I have about a 40 min drive each way to work, I like to notice licence plates. To see what state these people are from.

I like to see what diffrent plates look like.

But am I the only person who wonders where these people are going or where they are coming from? Was it a happy ocassion. Going to see family? A reunion? A death? VACATION!? A wedding? A birth? Possibly Moving? A job interview?

Maybe I am Nosy...but I do infact wonder.....why are you in VA? staying or just going threw???

Would you re-do the I DO ???

Marrige-"The social institution under which a man and woman establish their decision to live as husband and wife by legal commitments, religious ceremonies, etc."

Is marriage a phase? After all, over sixty percent of them in the United States alone end in divorce? I think not.

Recently at work I heard my co-workers, both who had been married before, and are NOW in serious long term relationships, stating that they "would never make that mistake agian" or "I wouldnt set myself up for that agian..."

Isn't what we are "bred" to do is find the ONE, we are to be with, fall in love, get married, have babies, live happily ever after.... right? Obviously in real life the whole "happily ever after" thing dosnt really exist so easily.
But what relationship is without its troubles and fights. Wither it be a friendship or romantic relationship. Unfourtionatly, YES divorce does happen. Break ups happen. Friends are lost. So does that mean give up?
A wedding band is a endles circle. Forever and Always. Some times no, it dose not work out.

Maybe I have a unique view on the whole starting over aspect of a marrige. My mother AND father have both been married and divorced, before they were together. They both brought a child into the relationship......recently they celebrated 25 years married.
What a story right? Forever after DOES happen, It is just sometimes not the way we imagine it to be.
No matter how bad Aaron and I may fight, the good ALWAYS out weighs the bad. And sometimes we just need to rember that. It may not be forever with the person you thought it would be. But to completely give up home seems insaine to me. The want to be with the person to complete me would be to strong. Obviously God completes me, and all my needs. Lets just say I mean on a human level.
If my parents had given up on being in another "trap" I may not have my Brother and Sister. I cant imagine a life like that.
So my dear friends and readers(if you are out there) sometimes, just sometimes. Take a step back, and look at the beautiful things you have with someone. And remember, the good times, and that it outweighs the bad.

SOME OF MY HAPPY MEMORIES

(MY TRIP TO NEW YORK, AND THE DOG TAG HE MADE ME)





















(HOLDING MY NEWEST NIECE EVELYN, THE FIRST INFANT HE EVER HELD, HE WAS SO NERVOUS...PERFECT)







(WHEN YOU DATE A CARPENTER THE "I LOVE YOU" THAT YOU GET CAN BE WIERD :-D
























So I am curious....would you re-do the I Do????

Grasping A New Look On Life

With so many things on my mind and feeling overwhelmed I have decided to take a new look out on life. I WILL and AM going to start loving the little things that make me smile. The things that are making me feel overwhelmed in reality are small. I have endured much more stressful and heart wrenching moments in life. My father having cancer, mother having cancer, loosing my uncle to cancer, so on and so forth. Its funny how one stresser on my heart I can handle a little better then alot of small things. God will and always has guided me. FAITH, I need to re-vamp mine! A highschool class mate of mine has really inspired me and help guide my heart back to where it should be. On God, Family, Friends, FOOD lol and LIVING life not letting it live me! So here are a few things that alway lighten my heart and make me smile. Silly or not. Some times it is the small things that will make a diffrence.

-Cleaning out my car and taking her to get a bath. Smells so fresh and the tires are all shiney. I LOVE shiney tires!!! lol

-COOKING, the smell of a new recipe, mine OR borrowed it dosnt matter. I am LOVING peppers! Red,Yellow,Orange,Green it dosnt matter they all have a sweet and daring taste. and the colors are perfect and make me feel important (dont ask idk)
-Going to lowes and spending over $200.00 on plants for my yard. (I cant wait to plant them tomrrow)

-When the man I love, kisses me on the back of my neck out of no where :-D
-When Stella gets a new toy and shows it to the yard, and other dogs, and to anyone new who comes in the house.Its pretty great.

this is steve the spider
-Falling into a freshly made bed at the end of the day
-when MOM makes the bed. about 100 times better than when I do. I swear I even sleep better!!!

See These are just a small few things that is what living is about! God has blessed me in so many ways! For me to be sad is stupid. I think I should come back and read this when I feel down. :-D So from here on out, I am loving even the small things that make me smile!

Counting days.

So when I have a lot on my mind there is always on thing that helps me. COUNTING DOWN!!!! so here are a few things that I am Excited/Nervous/Stressed/Happy about.


- 21 Days until Heathers Bridal Pictures.

- 24 Days until Heathers Bridal Shower.
- 24 Days until my FIRST house party at my house!!!!!
- 64 Days until Andy Turns 6 (she is growing up so fast)

- 64 Days until I have a pedicure with my Niece for her Birthday.
- 86 Days until 2 of my best friends get married!!!

- 116 Days until I can celebrate my Babies 21st birthday (WAHOO)

- 126 Days until our 4 year anniversary.

WOW...it has been awhile

Well hello agian fellow bloggers. I have neglacted this thing for about a year now. so much has happened that I might as well break it up into several diffent entries.
One thing worth noting Is I am 23 now not 22, Stella Is a year and a month old, and weighs at least 165 pounds. so amazing... The job I had been praying for I was wonderfully blessed with :-) And I am still not in my house just yet haha. but the progess is quite amazing. more pictures to come.

Over the past weekend a tornado touched down in Glouster Virginia killing 6 people at this time and injuring countless more. When something that is such a small disaster happens I wonder how we virginians would fair in a BIG disaster. I dont know what it was liek working here during hurrican Katrinia but it sure would be a mess!!! Or how about the earthquake in Japan or the Tusnami. The people that have had to live threw it...i dont know what to do but pray for and wish for the best... well i suppose I ought to get back to work....till later tah tah