yay house

What an eventful day yesterday was! I am totally broke but it was nice! In the second story of my house the new windows. Very nice double hung. And the area where my new tub will be has tempored glass. must say window world did a great job! I'd deff use them again.
Mom and I sanded down the down stairs bathroom and got the drylock on the walls. I dont know why people buy drugs. Just got to the hardwear store and do some renevations. After putting the drylock on the walls me and mom wear soooo dizzy and deff feeling high. I think...idk what that feels like but this didnt feel normal thats for sure.
Then aaron moved the stiars on my back deck. The stairs were facing the drive way and very wobbly, so we changed the direction they were pointing and built them to the side with a little deck to step onto first.
So even though things may be moving slowly at least they are moving right?

OHHH GAGA

I must be honest hear, I do not understand lady Gaga's videos! they are so creepy. what do they mean.
Like that song telephone with beyonce' in that song there like im in a club, not leaving my girls blah blah blah...right.
In the video THEY POISION A WHOLE DINNER!!!! WTF MATE I do not understand this at all. seriously disterbed woman. Im sorry laura my dear but ladyy gaga is deff got the gaga part down and no lady-ness to her for real.
Also what the crap does this woman REALLY look like? all I know is she shows her butt alot. I know what that looks like.


here we go with the booty thing



Seriously what is this about?



hmmmmm
IDK maybe i just dont get it

no baby steps taken here

First off I would just like to say that I adore my boyfriend Aaron, he is amazing and perfect for me in every way. Without him my world will un-doubtable crumble. Everyday he makes me smile and and makes everyday worth living. Also I would like everyone to pray hard core for my baby. He has got a great job oppertunity that he and myself are extemly excited for. I pray he gets it!

(laying down pictures, always flattering)
And now since in my last blog I didnt have an example of what Stellas huge paw in my hand is let me give you an idea

(oh by the way almost every picture of Stella she looks like a dark blob she very rearly stays still enough so, shes a blur, but her paw is very real)








Also, Have you ever been to a 4-6 year old childs karate class? It is about 30-45 minutes of americas funniest home video. My Niece will be 5 next mth and she is all about the karate class, which is great! My family fights over who gets to go see her on which saturday class! lol.
She is the one in the yellow and black belt. Shes earned 3 belts so far. THATS MY GIRL!
About 15mins ago i recived a text from my sister, who is expecting. She will be having another baby girl. Guess its a blessing that the have such an awesome "Aunt Nicca",
(i use to be "ducky" but it changed to "aunt nicca" whos knows)
to show these girls how to be fashionable, cuz my sister dont got MY classy touch ;) lol. she'll probly kill me for that comment.
Speaking of job oppertunities. I recently put in an application for a position that is the reason i joined my current company. It would be a heaven sent to be able to get that position as well. so lets send up another request to the big man upstairs!!!!!

Stella girl

My stella girl is not so lil any more. She will be 11 weeks tomrrow. I cant belive i use to be able to carry her without any kind of issue. Now when i pick her up ( for what little bit of time I can still carry her b4 crushing under pressure) her legs dangle down to my upper thigh. What a long dog she is.
She might as well be a "boxxer" her enormous paws come swinging outta no where and smack u in the face. Her paw litterly takes up my entire palm and spills over a little as well. She has recently started to chase her tail. I think she has just notice it's there and trys to get that damn thing away from her by attacking it....one day i suspect she will catch it, and realise she and it are the same :-D

Needless to say she is much my joy she makes my everyday after work a lil easier to deal with. I find myself wanting to just curl up with her and take a nap.
She is the most perfect color grey with her blue eyes slightly browning to a beautiful golden brown. I love her very much. The most perfect thing about a pet, they dont care what you look like, they dont judge you. They will love you forever and never give up on you. truely a perfect compainion

For Sue: My one and only reader and Fan

My work college sue is a great lady. She is deff the life of the party when she gets to work in the afternoons. She so funny at times and she doesnt even mean to be! Well sinces sue my darling friend is really the only one who reads this dag on thing, she is always asking for more details in my life. I keep trying to tell her I'm just not that interesting buuuut this one is for her.
Here are some random facts about me!
-my favorite color is purple.
-today is 100 days (litterly) untill Aaron and i will have been together for 3 years :-D
-I have one brother and on sister both older than me. They are great though

-my most favorite place to be is in Nags Head at the beach. I dont think there is anything better then fallin asleep on the beach and being with the people I love most. The sun, sound of the waves, reading the book and fallin asleep! MY heaven

-for the past 3 years every year for my birthday all i have wanted to do is gather with my fam and friends and eat Yamattos, which is what I do! its great a real treat!

-i have a newley aquired puppy named Stella! shes a beautiful great dane "blue" and sat she was 9 WEEKS old and 24 pounds!!!!!

The fruits of labor

My house I just bought was built in 1946. Its sitting on a acer and a half of land. It is my FAV style of house its cape. when I bought it, it was set up as 1 full bath 4 bedrooms, kitchen dinning room and living room. Also a mudroom built onto the back already.

When I am done with renovating it, Itll be 3 bedrooms (one used as a office) and the rest is the same. Now, i love my house. But it is stressful and sometimes I wish I wouldnt have taken on such a challenge. having a home since october I cant live in is a little frustrating at times. But yesterday and today a huge step was made

(the office right after I bought it)

The walls are all painted and the desk is put in. Floors are perfect and I am so happy. Lemme give you an Idea of what was taken to get the office into a finished position.
The celing had acostic tiles. Once you took down the tile, there were strips of wood hammered to the plaster celing that the tiles work fixed to. Once the strips were taken down the LARGE holes left had to be mudded, then waiting to dry then mud and dry and sand on last time. Being that the entire room is done in plaster LOTS of seems and holes needed to be done.(mudded and sand......so repetative). Then It got painted. and Painted......and Painted. not only do I have 3 diffrent colors in the room almost every color took 3 coats. The floors are original wood, BEAUTIFUL just a lil sand to get up old paint and a clear coat and TA-DA perfection.
Now You know how going green is where its at right? Well So much at this house has been taken down and tore out and ect. But I save EVERYTHING. and in the orginal bath room the shower has 2 glass sliding shower doors that are now the tops to my desk. with 3 file cabnets verious pieces of wood stained and painted I now have a totaly orginal and one of a kind GREEN desk

Saying good bye

Friday May 14th 2010, Zakk was layed to rest. After a week for waiting for the military to give the go ahead and all.
(I take back in a previous message not liking the military at that time) Zakk did not qualify for military honors (he wasnt in the military 20+ years, nor died in combat) however, his superiors thoght he deserved it. It was beautiful. He had a true hero's goodbye.

(this is not an actual picture)

Speaking of a picture, as we sat at the cemetary waiting for everyone to file into the church at the site....a girl infront of me found a need to snap a picture.... I will never understand this. Please know it took all I had to not punch her in the back of the head

The one and ONLY Fluffy

(Nags Head)

So I think I am going to catch you all up on the most Important people in my life. This is Heather. She and I have been best friends since we were in 4th grade together. This girl has been there threw thick and thin. All of my friends matter a great deal to me. And each realtionship is its own.
It has been a blessing for her to be in my life. She has truley been a sister and best friend to me and a daughter to my parents.
I take pride in all the wonderful things she has accomplished. She is a AMAZING hair stylist, skill-full up with times and a great person to talk to while you are in her chair.


(such nerds)
She is engaged to her best friend and the love of her life Chris. I have been friends with him since we were in 6th grade and I could be more happy for the two of them.
Heather is supper loving, she thinks every animal is sexy and the more fluff the animal has the better. She is a true kind hear i love her very much and couldnt live with out her.

I miss my cappacino girl

Christy and I have been best friends since 9th grade so lets see it has been 8 years now. Ever since the day I was sitting in the hallway infront of the girls locker and in the band hall and said, "Heeeeeeeey you, I like your shoes." She hasnt been able to shake me off since.

(shes so pretty)

Any way. my lovely friend was born across the world In jordan (middle -east for those who are geographicly challenged) She has been in the U.S since she was in forth grade. Well any way she is back over there temporarly.(MONTHS!!!) not that short for me! During this time with Zakk's passing I know she wishes she was here just as much as I do. It probli wouldnt even be so bad if i could talk to the damn woman.

(Us being goofy in Movie Time)

Christy is the Ying to my Yang. We are totaly oppisite people, which is what makes us good for eachother. We can see both sides of everything, B.c we listen. Basicly what i am saying is shes a Fruit Loop and I'am awesome.
To be honest I wouldnt have what is my EVERYTHING with out her. I met Aaron threw her. In fact i didnt like the boy lol. She has always had a way of bring people into my life I normally would not have had. The only down fall is that Aaron is a baby face he is younger than me. So is christys b.f, he is younger than she is as well. so sadlly we had to attend a prom AFTER we had already graduated.....man iI felt like a loser but my lovely darling friend was there so she was as equally a loser!

(How ever she looks pretty perfect here dosnt she?)

In case you didnt figure it out Christy is the cappacino girl, mom always said thats what color she is lol. And of course she agreed because it makes u alot damn more tan than I am.
But in all seriousness. I would like to tell EVERYONE(if theres ne one reading) that Christy really does mean the world to me and I love her very much. I wont be my jolly good-ness (truley) untill she comes back. As of today it has Been 15 days since I have seen her purdy face. I would appreciate any prayers and thoughts for her save and quick return.

Sometimes you cant have a TEXT buddy

I have to admmit I am a total texting freak! I LOVE it. See, I spend 8 hours a day talking to people on the phone, so frankly even if it means talking to someone i really like I dont want to....i know its bad.
Well it has come to my attention that some people you can just NOT have a text conversation with.
EVERYTIME I talk to chelsea we fight! I dont care if she text me and says the sky is blue i would say looks kinda purple over here to me. and BOOOOOOM world war 3. everything that could be used aginst a person is used. I ALWAYS get hurt it sucks. Worst part is that I am pretty positive that I am the only one who dwells on the situation later.
So her and I really shouldnt have a REAL convo via text anymore. Stupid shit gets blown way out of proportion its rediculous. no kidding. And for some reason she really knows how to get under my skin by not reaponding to me.




I'm so lame.
Anyway another thought on my mind is my Zak, deff no-one like him, the thought of never seeing his smile or hearing his silly laugh anymore is truely heart breaking. I hear that the older you get the more people you loose. We'll I have a problem with that I am only 22 and he was only 20.... thats a lil to soon for me.

Well breaking away from that I am mad at the military right now, for pullin the family threw waiting a WEEK to put him to rest. He wasnt out of the country thats not ok. right now i DONT like military time.

well world my night is almost done at work. might as well finish with a bang and do my job :-)

In memory of Zakk

For Zak who passed the evening of May 8th 2010

Zakk you blessed me with so many memories and friends and experiences. I'm sitting here and im not so sure how to begin. My high school memories and the summer after graduating is saturated with our memories. You had a smile that melted everyones heart.
- First time i spoke to you I found you in the parkin lot, i knew u from band, so I gave you a ride home. Then ocassionally I'd walk out from school to find your skinny butt sittin on my car. It always made me smile but i HAD to yell at you "DUDE OFF THE CAR" which is why you did it of course. lol
- I met two of my best friends threw you, Big Ant and Blake. AMAZING guys and without you i wouldnt have ever met them
- you me Jane, Christy down to VA beach. You and I were the worst to drive lol we kept competing lol. on the way home i spit my gum out the window and you thought i was spitting at you and you sped up infront of me and spit a GIANT luggey right on mmy windsheild. such a punk lol.
- use to lay on the ground at night and look at the stars you would hear a plan. tell me what kind it was and it always put me to sleep lol.
- the MANY times you tackled me to the ground to start tickling me. It was redicuous sometimes. one night you managed to have Christy and i pinned in the car tickling us both and we couldnt escape.
- using hairspray to spray on the ground and catch it on fire so it would spell out things LMAO. we were so lame.
- you,christy,brian, and i getting INCREDIBLY lost on the way to chesdin landing and when we finaly found ANY kind of water...ew.
- christy and i we came to see you graduate from boot camp in va beach...agian we manged to get lost.
- band class together my senior year.....you just destracted me lol
- I had a great time playin at the pool and jungle gym at ur hood all the time.
-u use to call at like 10pm on the dot. ud fall asleep talkin to me by about 10:15 lol
- burning papers from highschool infront of your g-rents home with hattar.

Gosh there are so many flipping things. I cant even think of them all at the same time when i wanna write it down. you have been a blessing in SO many peoples life. More then you could have known. You have left beinde a beautiful wife and baby boy. Trust you have a army of ppl that will love and care for them. you will never be forgotten Zakk. I love you and thank you for being you and a blessing

tanning salons = Hell for pastey fat people

-(the "look")



-(me in my form, at the tanning salon)



Lastnight I decided "hey self since your trying to loose all this weight and get healthy why not get a healthy glow too!" So i decided on my way home from a hell-a-shoush (guess at this spelling) day of work that why not stop by the tanning salon and hop into the tanning bed relax listen to some music and enjoy the warmth of my man made sun.

Well...walking into the salon i am walking in after a very nice looking skinny young blond, who gives me the look.....you know...the look as if i have a huge bulging zit on my face or something. Well, ignoring this...maybe she dosnt have people skills or something idk. I get to the counter to, two pretty blonds the one who serves me treats me like i am totaly and COMPLETELY bothering her, being very snippy and interupting me as i speak. HMMMMMMM i think to myself.....maybe 2 outta 3 ppl? idk. so of course i need to wait...what else is new. as i sit down and zone out I start to notice my surroundings...i find a uncanny look going around....

Please look above at "the look" to see what i mean. So as i sit in the waiting room which, minute by minute, has become incredibly smaller i start to realise what a diffrent creature I am from this world of leather faced, bleached out, high octive-talking, looking down thier noses at me, carnival folk.....

As my title stated a Hell for me... the pastey fat person

I am corprate america

One of my very last calls of the day ended in "Thanks for not helping me at all you little sh*t" ahhhh, graditude at its best.
Let me say this first I thank God all the time that I am so blessed in so many ways. I have a bed to sleep in, food in my belly, a family i love, a great boyfirend, and the best friends, and a great job. But please please can I not talk to someone that thinks I am the worst thing to ever walk the earth?





Sometimes i am faced with a situation where The customer has litterly exausted all options that it is possible for me to offer and its still my fault. I am corprate america... Then agian we all could make SOME attempt to pay a bill. Maybe lets not wait 5 mths before the situation has gotten real bad.....feel me?

Any way on a lighter note. I finaly have gotten in the mail what i have been waiting on toooo long 28 weeks long actually. My house is finally getting off the plateu its been on for soo long. at least i hope it is. It feels like a weight has been lifted off my shoulders.
and replaced with a new one of things to get done now lol. But at least I wont feel like I'm downing in the process. lol
well not really a good entrey but oh well. Timw for a lil sleep. Night

Human life is more fun on T.V

I never understood why people watched reality T.V. But as I have gotten older in life and decisions and my relaionships....ITS SO MUCH FUN! lol. Aaron and I sit here and watch wife swap and ENJOY it how messed up is that. It's not like we are really talking about a realistic action going on. And today Alexis(friend at work) told me about "tough love couples" not only is the stupidity of the people on the shoe great but so is the fact that the host has a lisp and also obviously waxes his eyebrows. Those things are better groomed than mine are. something creepy about that.
my guilty pleasures consist of
-jersey shore
-wife swap
-tough love couples
-what not to wear (is that "reality")
-some of those date shows are funny too.
well this is a stupid entry. Any way, (random change in topic!) so one of my best friends is getting married this mth and is holding a reception middle of next mth, Well i have this dress that is beautiful white background with big yellow flowers and green leaves and I have some kick'n green heels that match it perfectly. I mean this dress makes me feel like Grace Kelly Althogh not nearly as gracefully beautiful as her. But i havnt wore it in like 4 years since Aaron graduated, and i gatta loose like 872364908 dress sizes. Wish me luck, I have it hangin in the front of my closet so that Its toughnting me lol.
well untill later my lovelys (if there is any)

The day i realised my puppy hates me :-(

(Example of another puppy I have lost to Aaron)

So like i have stated before I am a new home owner, and also i love dogs. Well I have premptively bought a dog beofore I have actually moved into my house. Shes perfect, shes a "blue" great dane and her name is Stella.
Every morning for the past week that i have had her. I have gotten up at the butt-crack of dawn when she wakes up (with a rediculous loud howl/cry), which is about 5:30am. Now considering that I dont have to be at work until 10:30 this is uncommly early for me. But as I was saying i have been getting up ever morning with her and taken her to "pee pee" "poo poo", then gettin her some water, then puppy food, then out agian. Then time to play a lil and that works anothing bathroom break into her system. And I take her out agian. At some point during this time I eat breakfast, shower, do hair and make up, dress, take her out to use the restroom AGIAN then put her up for a nap and off to work. I come home from work play with her and the cycle for eat,poop,pee,play continues. HOWEVER, she's been loving all over allllll my other famiy members and boyfriend. Today she was sick, i was holdin her, loving on her, sat down on the couch with Aaron annnnd she slides out my arms and onto his lap. WHat the crap man when U finaly have the chance to enjoy her still A.K.A asleep she goes and snuggles with another person. THUS I have decided that she hates me.

What a Shame.

Well anyway tomrrow is another day of work and I think I'm tired from it already So its off to bed for me.......Night Night

Well hello there

Hello there blogging world. This is the first time taking on this adventure. I'm a little interested as to weather or not anyone will even read this lol.
I have started "julie & Julia" for the second time today (side note both times i havent finished b.c of having to leave to go to a function :-/ no becuse of the movie) and Julie's blogging while she cooks was very cool to me so i thought i would give it a go.
Lets see. i think for tonight i will just note down so things about me worth noting...mostly lol
1. i am 22 years old, brown hair blue eyes and a ehh body.
2. i have been in a relationship with my boy toy for 3 years in august, poor thing has his hands full with me
3. last sunday i brought home my dog who was finished being cooked, born, and ready for pick up b4 i had even finished puttin my house back together.
4. and yes i still live with my parents
5. i have one brother(married, no kids) and one sister(one kid and one on the way)

Life is a lil crazy for me right now. But please dont think Im one of those super annoying ppl that are so blessed but are all "woe to me" b.c they broke a nail. thats so not me, i cuss when i break a nail lol. But seriously I am really blessed for the ppl in my life and the life i have so far. Just some times you think man i would like to take a deep breath for just one second and peace outta my own mind. D you ever have that though? I guess I should probly let you in on the names of the key players in my life ppl ill talk most about in life.
-Aaron- the boyfriend a.k.a the attachment lol
-christy-B.F
-chelsea-B.F
-Heather-B.F
-Lindsay-sister(Andy the neice and Michael the boyfriend)
-Travis-Brother(Robynne the sis in law)
-Brian-friend (also boyfriend to christy)
-Tracy-friend at work(she makes the job alot more manageable)

I thank that this is the jist of it all. I'm sure there will be some random ppl along the way. Any questions please just ask (funny im talking as if theres someone to read it) oh well.