To my Friend, You know who you are. I love you

Please know that you make my life wonderful. And that everything happens for a reason even though we dont know God's plan there is one. I miss you terribly and there is not one day that you are not in my thoughts,prayers,and heart. There is always a home for you with me. No matter what.
I know you dont want to think about memories, you want to look forward. But sometimes Memories help create a better future. Remember the good, and the bad. And I hope that we will create many more.
I love you, So deeply.....I miss you.

-maroon 5
-emmy
-va beach
-tequilla
-applebees
-rooftop
-mellophones
-butt tag
-broken right window
-worlds largest brocolli
-giant rolls of toilet paper
-t.p jeremy car. PRICELESS
-guys...list goes on and on.
-burning papers with Zakk <3
-summer with Zakk
-catching stop sign on fire
-writeing with hairspray and lighting it
-peach highlights
-blond highlights
-red highlights
-prom, both times you went with me.
-HAIRSPRAY
-RENT


There is not enough time in the day to tell you all the wonderful memories i have

I am loving.....

(previous June Post)


So much in my life is changing, I am for the most part loving it!


I am loving-


coming home to MY house every day.


sleeping in a king size bed.


Cooking


Having dinner at the table with a candle and Aaron


Stella, all Stella all the time ;-)


Watering plants


Seeing them grow!


Watching our, 6 corn stalks, 3 pepper plants, 2 cucumbers, and 1 watermelon grow!

I.... Just......sigh

Some times I just think I really am meant for others. I know its not realistic but i really do want romance in my life. I don't know what to say. Right now I feel sad and unhappy. In every-way. I just want to be loved and romanced the same way, every woman.

lil tears, gonna lay down

holy geeees

So I am not NEARLY "finished" moving all my stuff in.....mostly b.c I don't even know what I want to do with it. Even though it is only ONE room going into a HOUSE....it still seems like I have to much crap lol. But ....Today, is my First REAL meal for lunch AND dinner. We got our Fios and internet hooked up yesterday. And the KING size bed was also delivered. WOW. So tonight will be our first dinner just us and Stella and our first night in the bed together. SO CRAZY .... biggest smile on both our faces :-D

A new anthem I try to belive

It dosnt matter if you love him, or capital H-I-M

just put your paws up

cause you were born this way baby

My mama told me when i was young

we are all born superstars

She rolled my hair and put my lipstick on

In the glass of her boudoir

"Theres nothing wrong with loving who you are" she said,

"cause he made you perfect, babe"

"So hold your head up girl and you'll go far, listen to me when I say"

I'm beautiful in my way

cause GOD MAKES NO MISTAKES

I'm on the right track, baby

I WAS BORN THIS WAY

Don't hide yourself in regret

just love yourself and you're set

I'm on the right track baby I was born this way

Its funny how I knew this song, sang the words, and then one day I listened. And It was like, DUH, God makes no mistake.....Like someone at work told me a year ago, "Your a child of God arnt you? He dosnt make mistakes." Im so stubborn sometimes.

Learning to love myself......One day at a time

A slightly aggrivated post

(way I felt at work, I think he looks like my twin :-D)

I really have no patience for lazyness at work any more. (

We sit here 8-10 hours a day. In comparisson to alot of other jobs. This one is easy. It requires one to pay attention and be on top of things. But you also talk to amazing people day to day and make new friendships. There is a nice feeling too of thinking you helped get some lights back on. Well for me it is.

Bad adittudes in here are contagous, and It is really hard to not slip into feeling negitive also. But I refuse to let it happen. But I cant help but get super pissed when a ignorant person makes a "judgement call" really just a fuckin lazy call and someone is without lights for no reason. Ok the negitive is gone now.